Today marks five weeks of my dog-sitting .. adventure? Things are going well enough with the dogs. I am struggling most with separating them to go on walks, I can’t walk them together. They overpower me and the big dog needs undivided attention. I’m basically scanning the neighborhood every step we take for possible problems such as people in their front yards/driveways and other animals. The problem is they don’t like going separately. She has to go first because she has severe separation anxiety and he doesn’t understand “you have to go second”.
Yesterday was the winter solstice and in my head and heart I celebrated it but didn’t do a ritual, those are on hold until I get back home.
My father-in-law is in the ICU. He has been dealing with a lung infection that has been basically cleared up by meds that don’t let his body hold any food down to digest. He is a little guy already and doesn’t have a pound to lose so it has become dire.
Side note on that for anyone reading … the main problem is that his primary doctor is the state he used to live in, he never changed doctors because he went through so much with this one and until now was ok driving to his old home town for checkups. The doctors in his current town can’t seem to help and the hospital in his current town wouldn’t admit him because his doctor isn’t affiliated.
So, his sister and a cousin drove him to the old doctor and they admitted him there. He was down to 98 lbs, couldn’t walk more than a few steps without basically collapsing. My husband has been helping as much as he can, he now has his dad’s dog at our house, likely indefinitely.
Not even going to go into what’s happening with the grandkids and their idiot parents.
I’m trying to keep positive about it all and focus on moving forward more gracefully than I had been. The emotions have calmed down and I’m settling in more. Missing my husband, our home, my car, and family but I need to make the best of this not sulk in muck of it.
Side emo note: I’m trying not to take it personally that only my mother-in-law has checked in to see how I’m doing – other than my husband and daughter/son-in-law.
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