Spring Equinox – Ostara

Last night marked the turn from Winter to Spring and I was reminded of my personal achievement goals for this year. Perhaps more accurately,  I was reminded that I made  goals but completely forgot what they are.

  • Self Confidence
  • Completion is Accomplishment (whether something turns out well or not, completion is accomplishment) thereby Increasing Self Worth.

I had to look back to my old blog posts from Samhain and Imbolc.  Yes, I got distracted and fell away from working on this which is a bit apropos isn’t it?  Well I’m back focused and it couldn’t come at a better time.

As an exercise this morning I thought to start working on self confidence by coming up with one thing I like about myself maybe on a weekly basis and in full disclosure I failed at finding a thing.  Certain challenges recently have me not liking what I see in the mirror.  Does that seem emo and dramatic?  I suppose so but it’s the truth and it was a little jarring for me so I am sitting here writing it out.

Without going into detail, I am currently beating myself up for not liking someone which is causing me to not like myself or at the very least I am questioning my perspective and my ability to be charitable, hospitable and flexible which are part of the essence of my spirituality.

In my estimation, this is a perfect time to get back into meditation so I’m planning to take time at the end of every day to sit quietly which will eventually move into meditation.  There is so much going on with my thoughts and emotions right now that I don’t expect to be able to quiet down enough to meditate right away but will work towards it.  Keeping it realistic so as to not set myself up for failure.

I did take a few minutes this morning to set up my altar in its new location which I had been putting off so I’m feeling a bit better with that accomplished.

 

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