Well I managed to survive the week of June without much incident. From Father’s Day through the 20th was a tough week and is every year, so much so that the rest of June seems incredibly insignificant.
The Solstice came and went without much fuss and to my disappointment. I do this to myself. My list of things to do for self-improvement and personal growth is long and continues to grow yet I am not actually sitting down to do any of them. Aside from reading more and friendship strengthening (I hope), I’ve not accomplished or really set things in motion to accomplish most of my goals for this year. I get excited and amp’d up for these things then I just fall back into the old routine. In October 2013 I set out to make some changes, what a friend calls “seed work” and I have not been taking care of the seed I planted. The surface of the seed I have accomplished mostly but the meat of it has gotten away.
Something needs to happen to spur me into being a do-er and not just a list-er.
My current list – results:
- Read more, TV less – slightly working on this but it isn’t helping my lazy.
- Meditate – not even tried in months.
- Altar and ritual – not touched it in months aside from my friend adding a lovely figurine to it.
- Work out 5 times per week – maybe 2 times if I focus.
- Learn Japanese – haven’t really started on that yet but have something possibly lined up to start in August.
- Strengthen friendships – I’ve worked on this some, opening up more.
- Being pretty – I am slowly working on this with allowing my paycheck to cover a manicure and maintaining a fun hairstyle. To simply like how I look.
- Embrace domesticity – my house could be cleaner.
- Bust Diabetes – I’ve not been eating as well as I should/could be.
That’s what I have so far. Need major do it power to replace wish for it power.
What I intend to do now is to use July, August and September to put into place a completely new routine. From wake up to fall asleep, my day will be different then it is today (other than work and ombudsman obligations of course). The last week of June I am going to start cutting away habits that are counter-productive and setting myself on a daily schedule. No excuses. If I’m injured I will find a workout I CAN do. If it’s raining I have rain boots and an umbrella. If it’s unbearably hot outside, push through it. There are only a couple of shows on T.V. that I actually truly watch, the rest are fillers, the T.V. will stay off all other times. The counter does not need to be crowded to do the dishes nor the hamper overflowing to do laundry. Cutting portion sizes a bit more and opting away from white carbs more. Not be judgmental, even in jest.
It’s way past time to get strict with myself and force the changes I want to make.
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Good luck with them all, if I were you I’d tackle one thing at a time-there’s nothing more satisfying than ticking boxes off a list! And the hardest part seems to be actually doing it for the first time, once you’ve got over that hurdle you’ll be well on your way 🙂 xx
Thanks, I thought about one at a time but a total overhaul seemed better. I don’t know, will think about it.
I once planted a seed and wondered why in the hell the damned thing get all leggy and sprout but never had any fruit. I started to get down on myself and the negative self-talk ensued. I took stock (like I think you may be doing now???) and I noticed that while the seed that I thought that I had planted was one thing, the packaging that I took the seed from had a beautifully abundant photo of blossoming wonder; yet my seedling looked nothing like it. I gave up on the seed and then realized that I was surrounded by abundance. Could it be? My seedling was simply mispackaged? My seed was something more than I ever dreamed? Some times, in seed work, you plant what you think is a cucumber, but the way life turns out, you end up with a bumper crop of tomatoes. In either event you get a fabulous salad and things work out – always – as they were intended and as they should. Listing things is helpful. I do it a lot. Rarely do I complete a list of crossing things off. Would it be helpful to have a “cross off” buddy? Someone to share a list with you and you both rave about crossing off all of the items? First one to reach the end sends the other one a surprise that costs no more than $10 as a bonus? But the $10 bounty needs to be completely frivolous??? I used to have an accountability buddy and we did these things for an entire semester. I miss her erasers shaped like fruit and the set of jacks and silly putty. Any way, I’m damned proud of you and I love you.
I’d be open to a “cross off” buddy. Do you have a list of things? I can’t imagine, you’re perfection my friend and very attractive. 😉
I do have a list…let me put it to paper!
All sounds doable. Try logging your progress or accomplishments. That works for me with my cycling.
I am. I have a notebook and an electronic tracker. Both sit quietly. Lol
Put it on your list to use the notebook.
What would I do without my helpful blogger friends. 😀
Excellent. Enjoy these things too– don’t make it like a stringent thing you’re forcing yourself to comply with. Constantly keep in mind why you’re doing them.
I love making goals… though right now I could probably use more of them. I’m planning a similar sort of mindset check in August, just to make sure I’m on track for the life that I want to create.
I liked reading this– I love that “motivated” sort of feeling.
I try to enjoy and embrace changes, but I am a creature of habit so creating new habits is my goal, it’s hard to do though. To make a habit you have to commit to doing it ritually. lol I’m totally inspired to make these changes though. Yay Changes! haha
I hope your check in August brings you happiness and a feeling of a successful, meaningful walk in this life.