Last night I had another dream of Dad, this has happened a few times since July. I dream alternative deaths. This time he and Mom were visiting us somewhere and on a tour up a canyon. In the bus to get there he wasn't feeling well, then when we arrived and started walking up the … Continue reading Dreaming Of Dad
Loved and missed every day. Yet I feel you with me still.
When I graduated high school my parents gave me a choice to either stay living at home and go to college or go work in my Dad's office and move into my own place. For me, the decision was easy. I was never an academic so college was not something I was looking forward to. … Continue reading My Friend Mary
In the office yesterday a coworker called me into her office and asked if I smelled anything like cologne. Nope, sure don't, why? She had a very strong scent invade her desk area that reminded her of her Father who has passed on. I said well he's just visiting you, enjoy it while it lasts. … Continue reading Unexpected Visitors
All it takes is a moment such as today, June 20th. One day. There are a few of them each year, a few days spread throughout the year that reach up and grab me by the throat threatening to squeeze the life right out of me. Every year it changes though, not so desperate or … Continue reading A Moment
Amazing! Happy! Joyful! Exuberant! Energetic! Healthier! In-Love! For the past year or so those have been the words I would use to describe my life. Pretty darn good. Everything came together finally, after 39 years of trying to figure this life thing out. The roller coaster heads for a loop.. Sad, Lonely, Fatigued, Quiet, Depressed, … Continue reading The loop-d-loop
Today I will bake a lasagna for a Navy family who recently lost their mother/wife. She just stopped, no illness or pre-existing issue known, just stopped. My husband's squadron has kindly scheduled someone to provide a meal for them through this weekend and we offered to do it for Sunday night dinner. I feel just … Continue reading A first..
My very kind, funny and lovely Aunt Jennie is at rest...wait...somehow that doesn't seem to fit her. She was a vivacious, outgoing woman who always had cookies ready in case anyone wanted to come visit. I think she's likely cooking up a storm wherever she is and inviting everyone in. The funeral was nice, as … Continue reading Funeral Funk – The Aftermath
I'm sad to report I have a funeral to attend to tomorrow. My Great Aunt Jennie passed away last week. She was the last elder of my mother's family and for that reason mostly is where my grief and sadness lies since I really did not know her other than very fond memories of a … Continue reading Funeral Funk